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eating cheezy poofy things...more quizzers! [Jun. 24th, 2003|12:05 am]

Find your Role-Playing
at mutedfaith.com.

Balanced. You accept your emotions as normal and
are not overly happy nor depressed. You are
emotionally balanced and should find peace in
the way you deal with life situations. Your
emotions are normal and well understood. You
see the light in the dark.

How Emotional Are You?
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find your element
at mutedfaith.com.

The pure lover. You're a perfect picture of
kindness, and compassion. You watch the world
around you flutter by, ready to be of help to
those in need. Bless you for your wonderful,
and scarce nature.

What Kind of Person Are You?
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I realized there was a hamster quiz and I randomly picked answers so I could have all the hammy pickies on here!!

You are a Russian Dwarf Hamster!

What Breed of Hamster Are You?
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You are ...really hungry.

What Breed of Hamster Are You?
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You are ...on crack.

What Breed of Hamster Are You?
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You are a Wild Hamster!

What Breed of Hamster Are You?
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You are a Chinese Dwarf Hamster!

What Breed of Hamster Are You?
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You are a Siberian Dwarf Hamster!

What Breed of Hamster Are You?
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You are a Teddy Bear Hamster!

What Breed of Hamster Are You?
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wow, you're heart is made of all things fluffy.
while it's nice to know that you're so full of
love, you annoy the hell out of me and other
people. but dont worry about it, you make
people feel good about them selves and are the
perfect girlfriend as you care. dont let
yourself get burnt, you have a rare heart

what is your heart made of?
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You are a Celestial Unicorn
You are a Celestial Unicorn!

What kind of unicorn are you?
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Your Potions are potent.
The Powers-That-Be have deliberated and we have
determined that you were meant for

The Potion

You need to rely on power outside of inner ability.
You are a gatherer, turning to nature for the
appropriate concoctions for spellcraft. But
where there is lack in raw natural energy,
there is an abundance of intuition. To be an
alchemist is a legitimate magical path. You
wander in the gray area between science and
mysticism, and can create magic to rival that
of any witch or spirit because of your
understanding of ancient formulas.

You are: The Cleric

Marcel Presents: Which Enchanted Item Are You To Use For Magic?
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Your soul is yellow. You are overly happy all the
time and sometimes scare people. I suggest you
settle down, even though its cool that you're
content with life.

What is the color of your soul?
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You don't tend to do anything out of the ordinary.
Nothing special. You'll probably end up married
with some of kids. Like the everyday Joe.

What type of person are you?
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Magic Number12
PersonalityRainy Day
TemperamentWhat You Lookin' At?
Likely To WinA Nobel Prize
Me - In A WordBeautiful
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Magic Number14
JobPorn Star
PersonalityProcrastinator (If The Apathy Doesn't Kill Me)
TemperamentAn Oft-Exploding Volcano
SexualJust Say No
Likely To WinA Place On The Bench (For The Reserves)
Me - In A WordStartling
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Strobe light goes off...1:18...

dating 101

You Should Teach Dating Etiquette 101!

You may not have conquered dating yet, but that's just because you refuse to settle.

You know the places to meet guys, as well as conversation starters.

You are the ideal flirt - always scoring the most free dinners, drinks, and diamonds.

You are perfect at teaching those with bad luck how to date.

You'll show women how to juggle men - the old "pair and a spare" strategy.

And you'll also show them how to spot a jerk... because you've met lots of them!

What's Class Should You Teach?

More Great Quizzes from Quiz Diva
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Yawn.. [Jun. 11th, 2003|02:38 am]
You are Trinity-
You are Trinity, from "The Matrix."
Strong, beautiful- you epitomize the ultimate

What Matrix Persona Are You?
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The Dante's Inferno Test has sent you to Purgatory!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)High
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)Very Low
Level 2 (Lustful)Low
Level 3 (Gluttonous)Moderate
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)Low
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)Moderate
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)Very Low
Level 7 (Violent)Moderate
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)High
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)Very Low

Take the Dante's Inferno Hell Test

I am the Overt Doer!
Wh00t! You're the OVERT DOER! Yes, I know,
"doer" isn't a word, but hey...

What Sort of Person are You?
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I am the Rake

A woman never quite feels desired and appreciated enough. She wants attention, but a man is too often distracted and unresponsive. The Rake is a great female fantasy-figure - when he desires a woman, brief though that moment may be, he will go to the ends of the earth for her. He may be disloyal, dishonest and amoral, but that only adds to his appeal. Stir a woman's repressed longings by adapting the Rake's mix of danger and pleasure.

Symbol: Fire. The Rake burns with a desire that enflames the woman he is seducing. It is extreme, uncontrollable and dangerous. The Rake may end in hell, but the flames surrounding him often make him seem that much more desirable to women.

What Type of Seducer are You?
created by polite_society

I took the test again...

I am the Siren

A man is often secretly oppressed by the role he has to play - by always having to be responsible, in control, and rational. The Siren is the ultimate male fantasy figure because she offers a total release form the limitations of his life. In her presence, which is always heightened and sexually charged, the male feels transported to a realm of pure pleasure. In a world where women are often too timid to project such an image, learn to take control of the male libido by embodying his fantasy.

Symbol: Water. The song of the Siren is liquid and enticing, and the Siren herself is fluid and ungraspable. Like the sea, the Siren lures you with the promise of infinite adventure and pleasure. Forgetting past and future, men follow her far out to sea, where they drown.

What Type of Seducer are You?
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I am a beutiful Silver kitten

What color of kitten would you be?
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You should be an Aries, your Outgoing, smart, and
Strong, but you sometimes can be arrogant,
insecure, and jealous.

~*What is your TRUE Zodica sign?*~
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You're smart, you're thin, you're pretty, and
goddamit, people love you. You are destined for
great, great things, little Princetonian. Let
there be a never-ending stream of Country-Club-
Like institutions in your unmarred future.

Which Ivy League University is right for YOU?
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What Is Your Animal Personality?

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I scored
on the classic 400 Point Purity Test!
Take the test here!

Damn that was long...


what fucked version of hello kittie are you?
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This quiz says I&apos;m not going to Hell, but it&apos;s wrong.
You don't belong in Hell. Sorry.

probably fucking lied or cheated. Fucker.

Why Will You Go To Hell?
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You have an entrancing kiss~ the kind that leaves
your partner bedazzled and maybe even feeling
he/she is dreaming. Quite effective; the kiss
that never lessens and always blows your
partner away like the first time.

What kind of kiss are you?
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Your Heart is Red

What Color is Your Heart?
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What's YOUR sexual fetish?
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You are a goddess!

Which Ultimate Beautiful Woman are You?
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I wish I was the fighter femme.

You should live a normal human life-span. Or maybe
even a bit longer. While you still have some
natural human/asshole tendancies, you are
overall a wonderful, good natured, kind
empathetic person. You can (and probably do)
help make the world a better place. There
should be more people like you. Gold star.

should you die?
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You come from the Ocean. You've always been drawn
to the sea, the sound of the waves, the crystal
blue water, near the sea is where you belong.

Where Did Your Soul Originate?
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perfect 10

You Should Pose For Perfect 10!

This is the connoisseur's magazine, and you've got the hot natural breasts which Perfect 10 requires.

You'll stand out in the crowd of silicone and saline enhanced girls.

While Playboy girls may have more fame, you'll have the satisfaction of wowing guys with your natural assets.

The surgically enhanced Playboy girls will be jealous of your perfect tits.

You truly are a Perfect 10!

What Porn Magazine Would Kill to Have You On the Cover?

More Great Quizzes from Quiz Diva

I Will Die of Natural Causes.
Your choice of life style has enabled you to live a nice long life.. To eventually die of a stroke, or was it a heart attack.. Either way you out lived just about anyone that gave a shit about you anyway.. Congrats

Find out how you will die, Take the Death Quiz now!

You are Elizabeth Bathory. (The bloodcountess)
Legend tells us that you, this very rich,
beautiful and high born woman tortured and
murdered some 650 young women and bathed in
their warm blood to keep yourself beautiful.
In some stories, it is said you have drank thier
blood as well. You were a sexual sadist on a
grand scale.
Ah vanity is your downfall. For shame!

Which Imfamous criminal are you?
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You like to talk,
you like to run,
but most of all you like to have fun.

Which drug should you be hooked on? [now with pictures]
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Perfection Obsession
Perfection Obsession

What's Your Obsession?
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Your Ultimate Purity Score Is...
CategoryYour Score Average
Never taken out of the packaging
Has yet to see self in mirror
Sex Drive 94.7%
The Pope is envious
Done the nasty, but not creatively
Gayness 98.2%
Repressed, are we?
Fucking Sick95.6%
Refreshingly normal
You are 80.31% pure
Average Score: 71.7%

OKay now that it's exactly 5:28 am it's time for bed...
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Don't-cha wanna Fanta?? [Jun. 9th, 2003|07:11 pm]
[mood |goodgood]

Just some quotes I wanted to put down for my thought...

Listen to the love around you. Your ears are open even if your mind is closed.

Trust the one who hesitates and thinks before they deliver their response.

Love is silent more often then not.

No fight .No winners. No losers.

Give from the heart not because you have to but because you want to and because you can.

Respect your body. You've only got one.

Be the ultimate dancing partner
Step lightly
Smile confidently
Tread warily
Move gracefully
Bend softly
Lift reverently
Observe carefully
Follow knowingly
Dip thoughtfully
Fall gently
Hold regularly
Merge willingly
Swap occasionally
Shift rhythmically
Twist brilliantly
Sway intuitively
Hesitate rarely
Connect beautifully
Release frequently
Understand perfectly

Imagination is more important that knowledge. Albert Einstein.

A kiss is never just a kiss. There's a whole universe of meaning contained in a kiss.

If you want to experience love, you have to take the risk. Love's always worth the risk.

Sometime what seems real is really fake.

The ultimate symbol of love is the cross. The cross represents the path of love. Each time is a chance to go the way of love. It equals the crossroads of your life.

To be a princess is to play at life. To be a queen is to be a serious player. Most of us play a little of both. The purpose of life as a women is to ascend to the throne and rule with the heart.

Love means being able to say sorry - a lot. It is also having to hear somebody else's apology in turn and then graciously accepting it.

"A kiss is a lovely trick designed by nature to stop speech when words become superfluous."
-Ingrid Bergman

"Love built on beauty, soon as beauty, dies."
-John Donne

"Tell me whom you love and I will tell you who you are."

"Friendship often ends in love; but love in friendship - never."
-Charles Caleb Colton

"Death is a challenge. It tells us not to waste time... It tells us to tell each other right now that we love each other."
-Leo F. Buscaglia

"Don't forget to love yourself."
-Soren Kierkegaard

"Love is hard work; and hard work sometimes hurts!"

"The eskimos have 52 words for snow because it is so special to them; there ought to be as many for love!"
-Margaret Atwood

"Within you I lose myself
Without you I find myself
Wanting to be lost again."

"We all want to fall in love. Why? Because that experience makes us feel completely alive. Where every sense is heightened, every emotion is magnified, our everyday reality is shattered and we are flying into the heavens. It may only last a moment, an hour, an afternoon. But that doesn't diminish its value. Because we are left with memories that we treasure for the rest of our lives."

"Relationships--of all kinds--are like sand held in your hand. Held loosely, with an open hand, the sand remains where it is. The minute you close your hand and squeeze tightly to hold on, the sand trickles through your fingers. You may hold onto some of it, but most will be spilled. A relationship is like that. Held loosely, with respect and freedom for the other person, it is likely to remain intact. But hold too tightly, too possessively, and the relationship slips away and is lost."
-Kaleel Jamison

"If you judge people, you have no time to love them."
-Mother Theresa

Love Quote # 20

Guys are like stars - so many to pick from
but only one can make all your dreams come true!
- Lindy Strahan -

Love Quote # 32

Love in it's truest form has no language or words,
it just has a thousand and one actions
we all wish we could describe.
- Kenneth B. Emery -

Friendship Poem # 2

What You Are To Me

I am a rose, you are my thorns,
clutching to me, protecting me.
I am the sun, you are my rays,
helping me to shine and to be all that I can.
I am a lake, you are my water,
filling me with ideas, dreams, and hopes for the future.
I am a tree, you are my leaves,
sharing who and what I am
and becoming an important part of my life.
I am a heart, you are my beat,
beating rhythmically to my happiness,
my fear, my sadness, my excitement.
I am me and you are with me,
to share all that I am,
to share life, love, and happiness.


- Bernice Ellrick -
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just one of those days. [Jun. 8th, 2003|12:45 am]
[mood |gratefulgrateful]
[music |none at all..just memories]

I just watched The Green Mile. I think that's one of my favorite movies now. I cried in it. Wow that was a pretty damn good movie. I think my dad even got a little teary eyed.

Today was fun. I love Kyel so much!! I think I flashed his family twice today though. We went to his sister's new house. We swam, ate pizza, and watched part of a movie. I got yet a worse tan line. I had fun w/ Kyel though. I absolutely love his family. Only 3 things went wrong...Jenise and Justin are not so good, my mom went off on me, and my throat hurts. I feel terrible. What's wrong w/ me?

Yesterday we saw 2 movies. Bruce ALMIGHTY and I for got the other one. It doesn't matter thought because it sucked. I got to eat smurf ice cream. I went w/ Kyel, Jess, and Ang. Guess what I did at the movies...j/k. Then we went to the beach. We talked alot. He was absolutely adorable and cute might I add.

All I can think about is Kyel and the movie I just watched. But mostly Kyel. I'm so glad he came back early. I was sitting in the movies and I couldn't help but stare at him. Or keep looking from the corner of my eye. I just love to watch him; every feature of his face and his eyes especially. I love the way he got into the movie and laughed hysterically when barely anyone else was laughing at times. I missed the way he touched me, the way he'd look into my eyes while saying "I love you" w/ such innocence and reassurance. The way he blew me kisses, and almost always tried to make me laugh. Just when I think this is as good as it gets. He does something or nothing even at times to make me love him more and more. He sometimes thinks it's because of things he does for me like valentines day or christmas. More than anything it's the thought that he tried so hard to make me happy. It's always the little things he does that really get me. Like the quarter he gave me w/ writing on it. Which I found at the beach by the lifeguard thing. The way he held me in the pool on a step like it was only me and him in the whole entire world and he never thought once that he'd rather be somewhere else. Like "I" was the only thing that mattered to him. I think he's going to call me. I really hope he does. Geez, I love him so freakin' much I scare myself. I honestly don't know what I'd do w/o him. I hope and pray to God that we stay together forever and that nothing EVER gets between us.
Goodnight and Sweet Dreams everyone. Even though not really anyone will see this. Bye.
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And this is what I come home to, this is my shelter. [Jun. 6th, 2003|04:40 pm]
[mood |cynicalcynical]
[music |I wanna grow old w/ you...Adam Sandler]

^pink...family portrait.

~job application
~turned down
~fills out some of app.
~Ang leaves
~goes on comp.
~here I am
~here I go
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Dreams... [Jun. 3rd, 2003|11:09 pm]
[mood |scaredscared]

I had a dream;
He came to my door.
He killed my family.
He walked through my hallway.
He listened through my door.
He walked through the beads.
With a knife in one hand.
A rope in the other.
He walked across my floor.
I was silently sleeping.
He was evily gazing.
He laid down next to me.
He put his arm around me.
He put the knife to my throat.
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As the summer begins; friendships w/ no end… [May. 27th, 2003|08:28 pm]
[mood |crankycranky]

Where to begin…

I wrote this almost daily...

Well I’ll start w/ the flag football team. We are now 14-1. We made it to state as one big family, w/ our hearts set on one goal. When I started this season I never thought I would be where I am now. First, on a fun JV team that’s always dancing, cheering, and has heart. Then on Varsity w/ very skilled and determined girls on the field, and crazy fun gals off the field. I know that I’ve made friends that may be going away or what not and some here to stay, but we’ve made the best of it either way. I’ve grown so close to the team that they are like literally my second family. I love them all to death.

Today was the banquet. At Phillipe Park. It was kinda final, but fun. Just a few tears, and lots of awards. But I wanna start with the other Saturday. I think it was the 17th. At Jazmin’s house, we had so much fun. It was kind of an undefeated/ hell ya we got this far/ sleep over party. We were up all night swimming(yes, I swam a little), dancing (cough:TT on the pool table:cough), talking, bonding. That’s when it actually started for me. At her party. After the guys left we all did this thing that I can’t really talk about. What we said or did stayed there. We all became so close that night. It was unbelievable.

Finally I finished all my exams and I think I pretty much passed them all. So it’s all good. Last 6 weeks I think I really slacked off. Tough.

Kyel left for like 3 weeks to Canada. I hope he has a fun trip w/ his family. I miss him. I got a cute picture frame and put me and his picture in it. I kinda had to cut the pickies out though. The night before he left. I ate dinner at his house and went for ice cream w/ Kelsi. And we got some pics developed earlier that day. I could have strangled him for taking so many unexpected and ugly pickies of me.

Wednesday Jeff came over for a little while. He’s so funny. Him and Angela wrestled and then tried to get me to, but I was like “no”. A little bit later he plops down on my couch and flips through several channels, and was like “don’t you have any porn channels?” I was just laughing and we had this hilarious conversation about that. I barely even remember now.

Then Thursday on our way home me, Angela, Amber, Jeff, Jessie, and Fredricka got pulled over by the cops at like midnight for racing. Actually we had just dropped Fredricka off like literally right before that or we would have gotten another ticket for that. It was sooo funny when the cop was talking. I felt bad for Jeff though. The cop called his parents on the phone and woke them up. Then the cop told them everything. He got his car taken away for the rest of the summer. Poor thing. That was his first ticket ever. I was in shotgun and I looked at him and it looked like he was about to tear up. I grabbed his hand and he was squeezing my hand tight. I felt so horrible. Later on that might Amber and Jessie spent the night.

That following afternoon we had our game. I bought a T-shirt that had flag football finals and other stuff. We all had our names in the back though. I was like hell yeah. We did lose for the first time to the Hollywood Spartan something rathers. Then we went to Bennigans. Had quite a few more laughs, and bonds. We were waiting for our check for like an hour and a 1/2. And the guy screwed our checks up 3 times. Everyone got their food 50% off. It was a good thing too cause Fredricka didn’t bring money so I paid for her too.

Then Rachael’s party was the next day. Another sleep over. It was so beyond fun that night. I went there at like 6, and was car hopping most the night. First I got there and then we were dancing around and being stupid. Then I went w/ Melissa to her house to get her stuff and come back. So we did and then I went back in…and I went on Rachael’s computer w/ a whole bunch off ppl to ftj. I didn’t know how many ppl I knew had one on there. We were all dancing and Angela got her hair did. And it was so cute. It was braided to the scalp. Then a car full of us (me, Mandy, Nicole, and Whitney) went w/ like 50 bucks from what the team had pitched in to get coach a gift. We went to wal mart and were going to get him something there but there was nothing, and absolutely nothing was open. So we decided, to get him a certificate to Carrabbas (not sure how the hell u spell that). Cause he always said we take up so much of his time and we would give him some quality time w/ his wife. Then we went to Walgreens and got a 12 pack of toilet paper. Then right when we got back Jazmin, Nisha, Melissa, and this other girl who was visiting Nisha from college; were leaving to go get something to eat. I was hungry and they only had junk food at Rachael’s house so they waited for me to get my money and go to Denny’s. Denny’s was fun. It was about midnight when we got there. We were laughing so loud, and ppl were staring like crazy. About an hour later we went “bumping”. It’s an inside joke between 6 of us. And of course Bessy. It was so much fun. We couldn’t stop laughing. And we picked up a huge ass cone for memorabilia. We went back to the house to pick up TT and go bumping again, and right when we got there Brit, Tiff, Ashley, Isabella, and one more person I forgot; were leaving to Lucio’s. They were off to T.P. his house and they had no clue where we were so we followed them. We thought we were so damn sneaky. LOL! Last night, or this morning whatever was all about timing. We followed them to Albertsons for more paper to Tampa and they still didn’t know. They were getting scared when we were almost there and figured out who we were cause of Bessy. We were just going to scare them when we got there. Every time we went to a stop light we all ducked and Jaz wore dark shades. Lol. We were the only ones around pretty much because it was 2 or 3 in the morning. So it was hard not to notice us. What blew our cover was Jaz keep stopping at the red lights far away from their car when we were the only ones. We got there and T.P.ed the hell outta his house. It was beautiful. The sensor lights keep going off but that didn’t stop us. We put a poster on his car saying we love you and a whole bunch of other stuff. In the morning he took lots of pictures. We saw them later on at the banquet. After that we were going to go back but J-bez called Jaz. And he was staying at the Radisson and they had kind of a family reunion. So we went there and ½ of us went swimming w/ 5 of J’s older cousins probably from 17 to 20. We stayed there an hour or so. Then we tried to leave but they wouldn’t let us because we wouldn’t tell them what bumping was. We hopped in the car, and Jabez jumped on Jaz’s lap when we were driving away, and his cousin jumped on top of me and TT. So J started driving w/ 8 ppl in her 5 seated car. He took off on the highway going about 80 miles per hour, back and forth. He scared the hell outta us. Not to mention TT was right next to me and she was soaked. So finally after 15 mins, we went back. And said we’d go into the hotel room w/ them cause they has Jack Daniels and a bunch of other shit. J still had her keys but Jaz stole them back when we were going up the stairs. She passed them to me behind her back and I sneaked out the front to her car. The security was watching us the whole time but didn’t say anything; I bet it was because they were all black. But I drove her car to the front and they ran and hopped in the car and we took off. By this time it was about 4:30 am. We were all hungry again so we went to McDonalds. Then we went bumping one last time, then went back to Rachael’s at 5. They all decided to play a trick on us because we were out so long, Brit locked us out and everyone pretended to be sleeping. They turned all the lights out and made us wait out there for 5 minutes and we called Brit and she kept sayin’ it was unlocked and hung up. She kept pretending she was really tired and she finally unlocked it and everyone jumped up. Then I finished eating, went on the computer, and went to bed at 6:30.

We all hung out for a little bit in the morning and left kinda late. I ended up getting to the banquet late. And a few other ppl did too. I got my Varsity letter & pin, Both teams’ certificates. The hustle award for JV. The most likely to drop the ball when Lucio’s looking award for Varsity. That is one I am definitely not proud of. LOL. And I got my Flag Football FHSAA Finals certificate. After the banquet, lots of pickies, and food we went to Jessie’s. Me and Casey took the left over food and went to the park across from Dairy Kurl, and gave it to some homeless people. And this pregnant lady who was really poor. We chilled at Jessie’s house for a few hours. Then I went home and crashed.

Monday I did some yard work, it was so hot, and I got another serious tan. My back hurts. I was still really tired. But then later on we went and saw the Matrix Reloaded. It kicked ass. Kyel called me today, and it hasn’t even been a week. I thought we weren’t going to keep in touch but he called for a few seconds anyways. I miss him.

Tuesday I woke up sick. I had a fever of 102.6 or 103.4. I was supposed to go to the mall today but my mom won’t let me go anywhere. And she said if my fever doesn’t go down she’s making me go to the doctor’s tomorrow. Kyel sent me an e-mail like 2 days ago. But I didn’t get it till today cause my internet connection was off for a few days cause my dad put a new desk and stuff in his room and since we’re all connected to the same power source I couldn’t check it. It’s our 7 month. And he called me again. I was really happy even though I felt like shit. I really love him. I’ve spent most of my day in bed. I feel so useless. I wanna go somewhere.

Like every day this week I’ve talked to Justin. Thursday-Today. Except today he e-mailed me instead. Me and him have become like best friends again. He wants me and his g/f to meet this coming up weekend. I’ve talked to her on the phone too, and she really likes me. She said I’m the only girl she trusts to be around Justin. He cheated on her 3 times b4. And she cheated on him once. We talked for like an hour and we talked about like everything. From where they’ve had sex to her really bad relationships in the past. When I talked to Justin on Thursday like 3 times he said that he loves me. I think he meant it as like a love a person has for their best friend. He tells me everything, literally. And he’s so easy to talk to. We’ve gotten really close the past few days. It’s pretty kool.

I miss Kyel so muches. I’ve mostly been preoccupied but today when I couldn’t sleep in bed; all I could think about was him. For a brief moment I thought I could feel him holding me. But then I woke up. I love you bebs!
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oh lonely night;kiss me goodbye [May. 14th, 2003|11:17 pm]
[mood |depresseddepressed]

I need you now; I'm about to break down. i'm gonna scream, i'm gonna cry, come back and hold me tight. The world seems so cruel. Why God why? I'm going to hurt tonight. There is nothing anyone can do. What's wrong with me. Is it a side effect? My eyes are watering, make it stop. I look like shit. Someone shoot me...please.
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Being sick is no fun... [May. 9th, 2003|06:57 pm]
[mood |sicksick]
[music |Whatever is on the radio on 98.7]

Since Monday I have been sick. I hate being sick.

Moral is...I hate pity, and people seeing me helpless. I just went to the doctor's today. My usual doctor wasn't there, so this other guy checked me out instead, He was nice. I feel shitty. I feel disabled when I'm sick. I have been in bed so much lately. I couldn't stand it anymore, I must do something, here i am. I need a car. I miss my K.I.D. He hates when I'm sick and especially hates it when I tell him I'm okay. He's sick now 2. But not from me...

I made a profile on FTJ. I have 16 votes so far. I was voted; 5.813 just a tink above average. I put a pickie up of my b/f and me. I thought I would get like lower than that. Lucky me?? I guess. We are 10 and 0. OMG, go flag football girls. I got to play rusher a few times last night. I felt like shit and wouldn't admit it till after the game. I was just glad I got to play.

The children's theater was fun. We went to Kings Highway, Southward, and we went to Plumb Elementary. The little people were so cute. We did two performances at Plumb and one everywhere else. I think they all had fun. I hope the Drama II people next year have as much fun as I did. I was still sick then, but I pulled it off. The scenes were about honesty, self-motivation, respect, and responsibility. We wrote the scenes oursleves. I wrote the self-motivation scene with my groups help. It was about a little girl who was at school and didn't do her homework or pay attention in class. She blames the little girl Amanda for not doing either because Amanda (lucretia)has the perfect family, and Missy (me) has a not so great family life with a very disfunctional family. It's kinda short, and in the end Missy and Amanda becomes friends with Missy. It's cute and I really think the moral got across. When the mom (Michelle) wore the wig and bathrobe during the part where it shows a morning at Missy's house...I couldn't stop laughing cause her hair underneath was showing so bad, and the curlers were falling off, and she had the funniest mean mother look on her face. She was supposed to be like that but still I couldn't help myself.

I think I'm gonna go and eat now. Bye-bye...
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Wishing upon a tear... [May. 5th, 2003|09:16 pm]
[mood |naughtynaughty]
[music |The cure...]

wish-list continued...

~to be the best at sports like soccer, football, and surfing
~to be beautiful
~to touch the stars
~to see people for what they really are
~to be closer to god
~to never be hurt
~to be smart
~to be the girl with the most cake
~to be more motivated at school and home
~to be a better girlfriend
~to not argue as much
~to touch every person I meet forever
~to be a better daughter
~to be stronger physically and mentally
~to take photography
~to capture a moment no one else could
~to see things special in people
~to make people happy
~to never have an enemy
~to love everything on earth
~to just be a sweet person that everyone likes and doesn't talk shit about behind their back

-my eyes
-my boobs
-my piggies
-my hands
-my scars
-my acne
-my stomach
-my shortness
-my face
-my hair
-my thighs
-my everything but boyfriend

*smurf ice cream
*love itself
*kisses...little kisses
*stars on a perfect night
*bubble baths
*cherishing a moment
*tears of joy
*a scent that reminds you of something that makes you smile ex. cologne on a b/f
*getting dolled up
*beach at nite
*staring into his eyes
*beautiful things..
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